Well, I am up at 430am eating Nutella and Teddy Grahams. "Why?" You ask? Because my baby boy is starting preschool in 9 days! I woke up at 430am and for some reason my brain went 'there'. That place where my heart is sad and I lay there thinking about my baby growing up. In my head I know that is it just preschool AND it is just two mornings a week. He is hardly going to be too busy for me. I know we will still have that precious time together that I cherish so much every single day and I am really excited for him to get this experience. I am excited for him to grow within himself and start to learn that independence and have fun without me watching. Can't I just be a fly on the wall and watch without him seeing? What if he says something really really funny and I don't get to hear it? What if he hits someone and I can't stop him or tell him to say sorry? What if he doesn't say thank you when he is given his snack? Mostly, how did my baby boy grow up so fast? There are some days, lord knows, I wish he was in full day school, but the truth is I love every minute with him and I dont think I am ready for this first leap into 'big boyhood'.
Oh Kendra!!! A year ago I was right there with you!! The time off from one child is good trust me! But I cried for 3 weeks after dropping Dylan off at preschool! It was hard to think that they were in others care and without me. I would think what would happen if he needed me and I wasn't there? You know what - he never needed me! It is good for both of you to go through it! He will do wonderful. He is a smart boy and needs time to grow and spread his wings! Remember I am here and always willing to listen! Good luck momma!!! What day does he start? We can do breakfast or coffee after you drop him off if you want!
ReplyDeleteI can not believe they are old enough to be independent! You have raised him to be such a nice boy... the school will be a better place with him!
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